I'm so not into dbsk right now >.<!!! Also, my Yunjae fandom seems to be long gone O_O; I don't want to write any fanfiction anymore.... Where did my dbsk fangirl go? I miss it, but I don't. It's strange, and scary. I'm afraid I won't be able to talk/etc with any of you guys anymore T_T.


Besides that, I haven't posted anything here for a while (since the whole brother-situation). I guess..no I think....I KNOW it's because, most of the time that I post something here, I feel bad, sad, emo, dramatic, fucked up, etcetera. But I haven't felt like that for a while..after what happened. It's strange. Was it THAT that changed me so much? I have the feeling I'm sitting straighter than ever (i tend to walk or sit bend), I'm not as open to everyone; I tend to only show my 'true' self to my friends. But recently I've been showing my happy side to so many people...

I have a feeling that this year will be so brilliant, I'm even crying because I can't remember feeling so fucking BRILLIANT. I've got so many things planned, written out, .. I don't flinch or get down when I see a flaw in my life, whatever it is.

My life is FUCKING FANTASTIC AND I LOVE IT..


ps: second time i'm staying in Leiden, away from my parents, for the weekend !!!!

pps: I WANT MY XMAS CARDS LOL  and I want my xmas cards to get to their destinations already T_T